I Don't Do Casual On Occasion 'Spanking'

Hmmm!
I thought I did...
Now I just feel dread....
Now I just think
'I don't want to do this'
How the f*** do I get out of this
???????

One thing I have learned over the years...To listen to my gut instincts. My instincts are yelling at me 'I don't want to do this'. So. After lots of deep heart searching. I have decided that this is definitely the end. My come back, is a run back into hiding. No not really. It is more a 'I dread this, so why am I doing this?'...

Technically. I should stop blogging. Stop going in FL, Bs, Ouch, F's up & coming site, etc....

I thought I'd give casual. On occasion. No strings attached. No input in between a go...but...Hey! I guess I really am a submissive. Not just a spankee, bottom there to be spanked by anyone. I do want a Dom. I do want to be his priority when it comes to playing with other subs. No I am not looking for 'Exclusive!'. Or daily attention, but I am looking for someone who considers me their sub, so like with any relationship they make the effort to work on our D/s relationship...

I'm sorry if I am wasting anybodies time, but, I'm sorry. I'm no longer just available to spank on occasion. Hmmm! Do I give up? Or do I search for a Dom? Because I am pretty picky when it comes to picking a Dom. I don't do bossy, arrogant, pompous, talk at me, talk down to me 'Mentor' me. He will be a close friend. My equal. My peer. Very skilled at spanking. Capable of communicating. Making an effort. Multi tasking when it comes to other fem subs, me being priority, because I am his priority when it comes to our D/s relationship...

Yeah. Play with other women, but, please don't feel the need to tell me about them, that is between you & them. When we are together playing 'Yes playing'. We are 'together' it is all about us. Submission to me is when I am playing. I can be very submissive when I am playing. Otherwise I am a strong minded, independent, individual, know my own mind woman. Not a 'young lady' not unless your old, of course. A naughty girl? Nope! Not even when I was a girl. Call you daddy? WTF! Nooo! I maybe young enough to be your daughter, but I don't do the daddy scenario. Or any other family members come to think of it...

Nuff said for now.....................................................................................................