Offend 80% Of The Spanking Scene In One Blog Post-

My bottom,
to spank...

Hmmm! I am considering giving up on being a submissive. I might become an attention seeker. Blokes love attention seekers. It makes them feel needed. Ohh! Yeah! Attention seekers also give 'attention'. Being an independent, individual, strong minded 'sub' just gets you treated like nothing more then 'JUST AN ARSE!' a free one at that. Nooo! fees exchanged...

I was keeping these negative bitchy thoughts to my private blog, but......

"Ohhh! It looks like * & * had a 25th w /a party. Why weren't we invited {Pouts!}...lol...So much for his miserable depressive life...

I'm assuming it was a spanking peeps convention. Because * liked the picture with *, in the same s c. I feel sooo hurt. Nah! Of course not. I'm taking the pee. * * needs attention & sick people. We don't fit in neither category...

* was really into that * bloke. The REALLY! sick bloke. It must be so sad continuously thinking about illness. Basically existing not living. Though people who seem to go on & on & on about illness. Also have a great social life. Sooo! SHUT THE FUCK UP!!! about illness...

Poor **. Who's exhausted from lack of sleep. Sooo! ill. Sooo! depressed. He does not matter. Only caring for * & the * matters. When he was after using me. Because she was too ill to play anymore. There they are with their friends having a party. WTF! STOP FUCKING GOING ON, then you twat! Your 'nothing' life can't be all bad can it...

The thing is. I was not considered a friend. I was considered a arse. Just an arse to use & abuse. Just a submissive to talk at. To treat with a lack of respect. Not listen to. Because I am just an arse. It really fucking pisses me off. Not that I didn't get an invite. This little rant is not about that. The doom & gloom people with their actual 'good' 'happy' 'positive' life... 

The fact that I was 'deleted' 'unfriended' for offending the twat. It is not difficult to offend an attention seeker, who just sees you as a 'no fees exchanged' arse. When I didn't even do anything to offend him. Actually. I was trying to be friendly. I was polite. Diplomatic. He was the one offending me, but I chose to ignore it. Use tact...

The story of my life. Ohhh! Yeah! I am a great sub. Great to play with. Too quiet to be friends with. I don't kiss arse. Or give the attention seeking depressed sick people enough attention. In fact I don't give them attention at all. Why should I. They get enough attention from each other. Pity they don't appreciate it...

How I see it. I am only good enough to be a freeby arse. If I think these people will consider me a friend. I am very much mistaken. No. They have got each other. Their friends. I am the weird 'introvert'..."

Hmmm! As I said. I should stop being a sub into playing & become an attention seeking manic depressive. Yet. These people don't live the life of someone with such a doom & gloom life. They just get more attention from being sooo pathetic. Stop 'attention seeking'. Though 'attention' & kissing up gets you more fair weather friends...

Ohh! Yeess! I went there. Not nice? Neither are most people. Being nasty to the sick people? Not particuly. I just think they should appreciate what they have got. Instead of going on about their doom & gloom life. Which is not all bad actually. If it was that bad they would be stuck in doors...

Maybe I should go on about my health problems. I might make some actual friends that way. Ohh! but no actual spanking. I'll just be one of your friends, hey! I would bore you with my illness, but I prefer to not dwell on it, or burden others with just how ill I am...

I feel for people who are genuinely ill. Or depressed...but...There is a time & a place. The spanking scene, where people are meeting with like minded people to play. It seems the ones who play are just a 'bottom'. The ones who are friends. Don't appear to play. If they do it is rarely. So. Don't play be there for friendship & 'socializing' {I know, some people are capable of both}